This week I started a new job after months of applying with no hope. This pandemic has not only claimed lives, but their livelihoods as well. So, when I was presented with this opportunity, I was over the moon excited to accept it.
I feel as though most people believe that school teaches you everything you need to know to go into the career you hope to be in. However, given the perspective I have now, I can see how far from the truth that is. For example, you can read every book and watch every video on how to draw blood, start a central line, or do an IV draw, but until you are in a room with a patient, you truly haven’t experienced it. Hands on experience is truly the only way to learn a majority of the skills you need to persist in the medical field.
I didn’t have that hands on experience. I had very little practice in the role that I am now in, and I felt the pressure of not being capable very quickly. Within my first few days, I started to question if I even belonged in this role or if I was too over my head. I felt like I was drowning in information and couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. Being the “newbie” in a wave of experiences doctors, nurses, and other hospital staff made me feel lost and inadequate. Then it clicked:
Nobody was born with the skills necessary for this job and practice and a positive mindset were the only things that would give me confidence. I had to remind myself that healthcare is a collaborative effort and that every person on the healthcare team plays a role that allows for the best level of patient care. So, even me, the newbie of the team, was playing a vital role in the patient care process.
This post is not to say that studying isn’t important, but the purpose of this post is to say to not expect to be the perfect version of the healthcare role you are in right off the bat.
So it is okay to feel anxious, or nervous, or not good enough on your first couple weeks in the role. Embrace those feelings as they are part of diving into a new experience. As long as you keep working at it and remind yourself why you are there, you will make it. You are just as important and valuable as all of your older, more experienced coworkers and deserve to be there just as much. You will find your purpose.