Step Forward, Step Back

I take one step forward

By getting off my antidepressant

And 4 steps back

By crying in my car after work.

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I  take one step forward

By forgiving you and the words you said 

And 3 steps back

By not being able to forget

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I  take one step forward

By prioritizing myself 

And 2 steps back 

By feeling selfish when I do

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How can I progress mentally

If it is always 

One step forward, and one step back.