Tell All Tuesday #15

I wish there was a way to be emotionally and mentally prepared to work in the healthcare field. It is hard being around ill patients all of the time, regardless of what your role is. As hard as you try to separate work from your personal life, your emotions don’t always follow suit. Nobody can ever prepare you for the magnitude of emotions of losing a patient, a code blue, working with dementia patients each day. Maybe that is my graduate schools want you to have experience now before applying, so that you know exactly what you are walking into– so you aren’t blindsided. But nonetheless, you are. You try to be strong for your patients, and their families, and keep your emotion in as long as you can. I love my job and the patients I serve, but better mental health awareness needs to be taught in medical, nursing, PA, PT school, etc.

Sincerely,

“healthcare workers need help too”


I apologize for my time away from this blog! I had lot the rhythm there for a minute and needed some time to catch back up.

But, welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential future posts. KEEP THEM COMING!! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

I  am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I  have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts!

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a fantastic week, Real Unfiltered Fam!

100 Years

I used to fantasize

About the idea of living to 100.

The older I get

The more I realize

It would be a curse

The most painful thing.

Watching while your friends and family

Pass away before you.

Outliving them wouldn’t be some milestone

It would be torture.

You’d be alone eventually.

Everyone you know, gone.

I don’t wish this upon myself anymore.

Tell All Tuesday #14

I’ve gotten to a place in my life where I no longer give unsolicited advice to the people I love. I have learned slowly that sometimes it is better for people to make their own mistakes and learn. Is it just me, or do the life lessons stick on harder when you had to mess up in order to get there? It sucks to see people you love make the same mistakes you did. Sometimes I wish people would give me the benefit of doubt and listen :/

Sincerely,

“Unsolicited Advice”


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I  am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I  have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts!

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

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Tell All Tuesday #13

I have forgiven some unforgivable sh*t.

There have only been three times in my life where I dealt with friendships falling out. In middle school, and twice in college. And each of those times, it was because the people I thought were my friends believed the LIES of someone they not only 1) knew was no good, and 2) should have known were not true.

I know healing is not at all linear, because I still can become just as angry as I was back when it happened when I think about the things people have falsely accused me of and cut me off for. I’ve had people come back to me and tell me the horrible things that people who I called my friends have said about me, and forgiven.

I’ve felt like the odd one out of a friend group plenty of times or not been treated so well by the others in the group, and forgiven. And yet the same grace that I extend to others, is never extended to me.

And I hate that the heartbreak I’ve experienced from these friendship fallouts, I feel, has permanently scarred my heart in a way that I won’t ever be able to recover from. Now I question everyone I meet and know. I feel like I have to be on guard at all times and watch what I say and who I say it to. I feel on the edge of depressive episodes when I see girls out with their friend groups going on trips or on group facetime calls, because I feel like I was robbed of that.

People who were my closest friends believed lies about me from people who they knew were malicious in character, or who they already knew were known for starting drama, or who they knew were bitter towards me for whatever reason.

And I’m not a perfect individual at all. But it hurts when I’ve poured so much into my friendships, usually more than what is poured into me, and yet I’m treated as easily disposable. I extend so much grace, show so much patience, to be easily thrown away. OR the things that I’ve been accused of or done, are the exact same things that other people have done to each other… except I guess it’s easier for me to be the bad guy.

Now I’m back to praying for the type of friend group that I once had, the friend group that I frequently see others enjoying. But I’m also praying that it’s not too late.

Friendships have never been easy for me because of the bullying I suffered growing up and all the times I’ve moved. And they always say the older you get, the harder it is to make friends. And I’m scared it’s true, because usually in your 20s people aren’t looking to make new friends. They’re usually celebrating the 5-10 year anniversaries of the friends they’ve had for a long time.

I have forgiven some unforgivable sh*t, and now I’m scared I’m suffering the irreversible price of it.

Sincerely,

“Hopeful, but also Hopeless”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential future posts. KEEP THEM COMING!! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

I am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts!

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a fantastic week, Real Unfiltered Fam!

Miss You

Is it possible to miss you

Even when I don’t really know you

Even when you live so far away

Even when the memories I have of you aren’t positive ones?

Is it possible to grieve you

Even if you are still here

Even if it’s sympathy grief

Even if I don’t really know what grief is?

Is it possible to stay awake at night, thinking of you

Even when I know you do not think of me

Even when I know you do not miss me

Even when you barely remember me at all?

Tell All Tuesday #12

What bothers me about being a young adult in my 20’s is the “hustle mentality” that is expected of me. “Hustle mentality” to me means working like a dog, always thinking 5 steps ahead, always making moves financially, having a bunch of side incomes, etc. Falling in line with this is also the “productivity” mindset. The idea that you always have to be doing something, and that sitting on my couch for a day is somehow “wrong” or “lazy”. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job and I like where I am in my life, but there is more to life than “hustling” all the time. I worked very hard to get to where I am at. However, working 60 hour weeks is great if that’s what you WANT to do, but for most people that would be less than ideal. It also throws me off that somehow you are meant to shift from this “hustle mentality” to suddenly want and have balance in your 30’s and 40’s. It seems unrealistic to me to simply flip a switch and go from one extreme to another. I almost feel out of place with my peers who want to kill themselves making all this money when I am just doing my best to have a work-life balance. It almost makes me feel lazy or unproductive when I am not trying to find another income source, or a new work venture to start. But at the end of the day, when we are old and wrinkly, I don’t want to look back at my life and only remember “hustling” and working, I want to remember good times with friends and family, adventures I have been on, and all of the moments that brought me joy.

Sincerely,

“Hustle Mentality Sucks”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential future posts. KEEP THEM COMING!! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

I am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I  have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts! I know I have sort of dropped the ball on my posting schedule for Friday’s but I hope to jump back on this week.

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a fantastic week, Real Unfiltered Fam

Tell All Tuesday #11

So I will keep it short and sweet this week for your readers– why do people choose to take advantage of those who love and cherish them the most? Whether it is family, or a significant other, or a best friend, I have seen it time and time again where people go separate ways due to one person treating the other like they are disposable. I am so tired of people treating me poorly and expecting me to stay friends with them and stay by their side. Every time I stand up to them, it is automatically blamed on me being “needy” or “high maintenance” when I am really just asking for you not to treat me like a doormat. Some basic human decency, that you can apparently show any person who isn’t me, would be greatly appreciated.

That’s it for the rant– learn to value yourself and your time people. Protect your peace.

Sincerely,

“Short and Sweet”


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I  am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I  have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts!

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

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Limitations

“The limit does not exist”

Has a whole new meaning 

When you enter the adult world.

Learning how to 

Say no 

Set boundaries 

Acknowledge your limits 

Is never taught 

It is learnt through negative experiences.

As someone who’s self-worth 

Is defined by productivity 

Setting limits 

Feels like climbing Mount Everest

It is one of the hardest things I had to do.

At the end of our lives

I don’t want to look back 

And simply think about work.

You are worth more than just a job title. 

Tell All Tuesday #10

Can we normalize a-type, social butterfly type people not wanting to be social all of the time? I am generally a social person– I like to hang out with people, study with people, do cool things with people, but recently I have felt myself being drained by social interactions. I know it is finals season and it is probably just stress eating at me, but I shouldn’t be made to feel bad simply because I want some alone time. People also shouldn’t automatically jump to the conclusion that I am mad or upset with them when I just want some space to decompress from the world. It’s not you, it’s me you guys.

Sincerely,

“The Antisocial Social Friend”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential future posts. KEEP THEM COMING!! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

Sorry for the delay in posting. Last Thursday was my birthday, and I decided to not post on Friday to give myself the day off. We will continue with regularly scheduled posts from now on!

I am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I  have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts!

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a fantastic week, Real Unfiltered Fam