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How many people have to die 

An unfair and unjust death 

To have a reform

Of the society we live in?


These are 

Mothers and fathers 

Sons and daughters 

That are victims of a terrible system

That didn’t have to die.


Blood has been spilled

But nobody seems to care. 

The pattern repeats itself 

Over and over

Because our country has more respect 

For guns 

Than an individual’s life.

Tell All Tuesday #7

Does anyone else ever feel like there is not enough time in the day to do all of the things a functioning human should do? 

For example: you wake up, brush your teeth, wash your face, do skincare (can’t forget the sunscreen), take vitamins, make and eat breakfast/coffee, go to work for 8-9 hours, eat lunch, workout, sleep 8 hours a day, drink enough water, journal and who knows what else during the day! 

Sometimes it just gets too much to remember all of the things you have to do in a day. Maybe that is my residual depression speaking, or maybe my lack of sleep, but it’s genuinely hard to get through the day sometimes. Most days I  manage to eat 2 meals, sleep 6 hours, and work— that’s it. What annoys me most is that the people around me never fail to remind me of all of the things I  forgot to do in a day, and how I “shouldn’t be so tired” all of the time. Maybe not, but this is just the reality I have learned to deal with since entering the adult world. 

Does this make me a bad adult, or am I just very bad at time management? Or is it my depression flaring up again and sapping all of the energy and motivation out of me? The world may never know, but I am exhausted trying to do it all.

Sincerely, 

“Exhausted and Overwhelmed”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential future posts. KEEP THEM COMING!! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

I  am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I  have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts!

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a fantastic week, Real Unfiltered Fam

Untouched

Sometimes I think about things—

Things that will never be seen again.

Like the beach.

You will never see the exact identical beach 

Ever again 

The waves come and go 

Washing and adjusting the sand 

Creating new coastlines 

With each swift sweep of the ocean

Leaving things completely new 

Fresh 

Untouched.

That is how I wish each day arose

Completely new 

None of the baggage of the previous day 

No heartache 

No pain 

No memories 

Just a clean slate to start over on

Forcing you to make each day the best it can be. 

Tell All Tuesday #6

Why is it that people move to foreign countries and don’t bother the learn the official language?

It is so annoying when we have patients that need a translator every time they come into the office. The appointment, that should take an hour, ends up taking two hours and your entire scheduled day of patients runs behind schedule. It is time consuming.

My parents are immigrants but they made the effort and learned the language when they moved enough to get by in society. I, myself, am also an immigrant who had to learn the alphabet and basic English grammar rules at the age of 10 while in a foreign country. Today, I manage a healthcare facility. It wasn’t easy for me or for my parents but we made the effort and took the initiative to LEARN. It wasn’t easy for me while I was learning a new language. Sure I said things wrong, pronounced words with an accent, and even said sentences that didn’t make sense, but that was all part of the process. I was picked on for being “that kid” and even my parents were embarrassed when they said things incorrectly, but we didn’t let that stop us from learning the language and assimilating into the society we were now in.

 If it was up to me, every country needs to have “learn our national language” as a requirement of the immigration process.

Sincerely,

“Frustrated Immigrant”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential future posts. KEEP THEM COMING!! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

I  am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I  have created a drop down menu on the home page for easy navigation to posts!

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a fantastic week, Real Unfiltered Fam.

Fumes

Waking up tired 

No matter how much I sleep

Finishing the day exhausted 

No matter how many hours I work

The cycle is slowly eating away 

At any motivation I have

And the serotonin my body so graciously creates.

Replenishing these things

Feels like the most impossible task.

Drained doesn’t seem to fully encompass

The feeling of running on fumes for so long.

Just waiting for something 

To finally fill me back up.

Tell All Tuesday #5

Why does mental health have to be such a “bad” topic? Why am I bad, attention-seeking person when I speak about my mental health but I’m also weak if I don’t talk about it? Why is it appropriate to go behind someone’s back and say they’re lying about their mental health?

I can’t tell you the amount of times I’ve heard that my anxiety is fake or my depression isn’t as bad as it could be. I’m sorry, but tell that to my trauma. Tell that to the awful thoughts running through my head. Tell that to the overwhelming urge I have to just quit. Who gave anybody the right to judge another person’s way of coping? Who gave anybody the right to tell someone else what’s real and what’s not real in their own mind?

You never know what someone is going through. What thoughts are running through their head. What demons and battles they are fighting Every. Single. Day. You have no idea. So why not choose kindness. Why doubt someone when you could support them? Why make someone’s mental health worse when you could make it better by simply believing them? There’s no reason why I should feel uncomfortable talking to my friends about my mental state and what I’m going through, but I do. They’re nice to my face and then run behind me and tell others I’m faking.

I go to therapy once a week. You’d never know that looking at me or seeing me in public because I keep my happy face on. I’m sure I pass by at least 100 people a day who also struggle with mental health. You can’t visibly see or tell all the time when someone is battling a war in their head. So choose kindness. Believe someone when they tell you they’re not okay. Don’t shut them down because it’s inconvenient for you.

I’m sorry my mental health isn’t “bad enough” for you but it’s damn near crippling to me.

Sincerely,

“Mental Health Is Exhausting”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential future posts. KEEP THEM COMING!! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

I am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I have created a drop down menu on the home page to easily access poetry and “Tell All” posts.

Drop a comment below in you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a fantastic week, Real Unfiltered Fam.

Identity Crisis

How does one weave 

Concepts 

Of their past and present 

Into one cohesive unit?


This is the identity crisis 

Of a first generation immigrant child.

The need to maintain one’s home culture 

While embracing the one we are born into 

Sends young adults into a spiral.


We have a choice 

To assimilate completely 

Or remain separated from society, 

Unless we delicately learn 

To combine elements of both. 


There is no rule book 

No diagnostic code 

No instructions 

On how best to achieve this balance 

But I for one

Wish there was.


Hello Real Unfiltered Fam! This marks the 50th post on the blog, and I truly never imagined we would get this far. The support and love for this blog has surpassed any of my expectations. Thank you for the continuous support, words cannot express how much it means to me. Have a great weekend, and we will meet again on Tuesday for another “Tell All” post!

Tell All Tuesday #4

I hate people that want “relationship energy” but don’t want the actual relationship. Some people are out here faking whole relationships, and act like they have a significant other but then drop them and claim they aren’t ready for a relationship yet. The kicker is that they then go and talk to someone else a week later, repeating the same cycle.

The worst feeling is when someone keeps you a secret. If we are together be open about it. PLEASE don’t act like we are just friends in public and around your friend group, but then in private, we are a couple. This isn’t Hannah Montana, you can’t have the best of both worlds. Either you claim someone publicly and be a couple, or let them go, and stop playing your games with anyone else.

Finally, STOP expecting people to be with you on your own time or when it’s convenient for you. Relationships are about making sacrifices. So don’t act like you want to be with someone if they have to put all the work and energy in while you sit back being lazy and just call shots. We are supposed to be grown ups, so please, can people stop acting like children and grow the f*ck up.

Sincerely,

“Modern Dating Sucks”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential posts, KEEP THEM COMING! Email me at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com

I am so excited with the direction this series is going in! Stay tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All”. I have created a drop down menu on the home page to easily access poetry and “Tell All” posts.

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a blessed rest of the week, Real Unfiltered Fam.

Timeline

The internal, mental timeline 

That my anxiety has set for me 

Never fails to make me feel behind.


Behind in education

Watching my peers get accepted 

Into grad programs 

Into research positions 

Into dream jobs

Reaching their future goals they always talked about 

I am genuinely happy for them, 

But that little voice in my head breeds jealousy.

My time will come.


Behind in relationships

While I watch classmates get engaged 

Watch old friends move in with their person 

I am on the sidelines cheering them on

But subconsciously knowing 

That I am so many pages behind them.

My time will come.


My time will come.

But when?

How much longer will this girl with anxiety

Have to wait for things to fall into place?

Tell All Tuesday #3

You know what really makes me mad and honestly, sad? Why do I always have to be the one who makes an effort to keep a friendship going? This pandemic has made it so clear who wants to stay friends and who can’t be bothered unless you’re there physically in front of them. People who I considered close friends, that I saw on a daily basis throughout the week, and met up with for the occasional lunch or coffee, have pretty much disappeared from my life completely.

In the beginning, I made an effort. I texted, called, and tried to meet up, but they were busy or had other obligations. Now almost a year later, I haven’t heard from them in months. It was always up to me to reach out. They never sent a quick “Hey! How are you?” text or anything. 

As an adult, it’s hard to meet new people and make new friends outside of the people you see and deal with everyday, and sometimes you just need a girls night out to decompress! I recently ran into one of these “friends” and she says  “ where have you been? I haven’t heard from you in a while?”  My response in my head was “you have a phone too they work both ways “.

If you have friends that you haven’t heard from or talked to/texted with in a while, maybe they are waiting for you to reach out. So re-evaluate your stance. It is exhausting to always be the first one to reach out.  Just don’t wait too long, they might decide your friendship is no longer worth the one-sided effort.

Sincerely,

“Frustrated Friend”


Welcome back to “Tell All Tuesday”! Thank you to those who have submitted rants and potential posts, you guys make me so happy! Stayed tuned on Friday for our regularly scheduled poetry post, and then again next Tuesday for another “Tell All” post. I have created a drop down menu on the home page to easily access poetry and “Tell All” posts.

Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

Have a blessed rest of the week, Real Unfiltered Fam.