Tell All Tuesday #4

I hate people that want “relationship energy” but don’t want the actual relationship. Some people are out here faking whole relationships, and act like they have a significant other but then drop them and claim they aren’t ready for a relationship yet. The kicker is that they then go and talk to someone else a week later, repeating the same cycle.

The worst feeling is when someone keeps you a secret. If we are together be open about it. PLEASE don’t act like we are just friends in public and around your friend group, but then in private, we are a couple. This isn’t Hannah Montana, you can’t have the best of both worlds. Either you claim someone publicly and be a couple, or let them go, and stop playing your games with anyone else.

Finally, STOP expecting people to be with you on your own time or when it’s convenient for you. Relationships are about making sacrifices. So don’t act like you want to be with someone if they have to put all the work and energy in while you sit back being lazy and just call shots. We are supposed to be grown ups, so please, can people stop acting like children and grow the f*ck up.

Sincerely,

“Modern Dating Sucks”


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Timeline

The internal, mental timeline 

That my anxiety has set for me 

Never fails to make me feel behind.


Behind in education

Watching my peers get accepted 

Into grad programs 

Into research positions 

Into dream jobs

Reaching their future goals they always talked about 

I am genuinely happy for them, 

But that little voice in my head breeds jealousy.

My time will come.


Behind in relationships

While I watch classmates get engaged 

Watch old friends move in with their person 

I am on the sidelines cheering them on

But subconsciously knowing 

That I am so many pages behind them.

My time will come.


My time will come.

But when?

How much longer will this girl with anxiety

Have to wait for things to fall into place?

Tell All Tuesday #3

You know what really makes me mad and honestly, sad? Why do I always have to be the one who makes an effort to keep a friendship going? This pandemic has made it so clear who wants to stay friends and who can’t be bothered unless you’re there physically in front of them. People who I considered close friends, that I saw on a daily basis throughout the week, and met up with for the occasional lunch or coffee, have pretty much disappeared from my life completely.

In the beginning, I made an effort. I texted, called, and tried to meet up, but they were busy or had other obligations. Now almost a year later, I haven’t heard from them in months. It was always up to me to reach out. They never sent a quick “Hey! How are you?” text or anything. 

As an adult, it’s hard to meet new people and make new friends outside of the people you see and deal with everyday, and sometimes you just need a girls night out to decompress! I recently ran into one of these “friends” and she says  “ where have you been? I haven’t heard from you in a while?”  My response in my head was “you have a phone too they work both ways “.

If you have friends that you haven’t heard from or talked to/texted with in a while, maybe they are waiting for you to reach out. So re-evaluate your stance. It is exhausting to always be the first one to reach out.  Just don’t wait too long, they might decide your friendship is no longer worth the one-sided effort.

Sincerely,

“Frustrated Friend”


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Drop a comment below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

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Bruises

Physical injuries warrant attention. 

They are clearly there 

Visible to all.

The bruises 

The bandages 

They are battle wounds 

Of mistaken moments.

Emotional injuries do not leave a trace 

They hide and are elusive.

Leaving you struggling

Without anyone knowing

And easily linger longer than any physical injury. 

Sometimes I wish emotional injuries left bruises. 

Tell All Tuesday #2

The Texas governor, in his stupidity, announced that the mask mandate is now lifted and businesses can open back up to 100% capacity next week. Was this decision made alongside medical professionals telling him it is the right thing to do? NO. It is because he thinks 1 in 5 people being vaccinated is enough to risk the lives of the other 80%. RECKLESS. We are close to having most Americans fully vaccinated within the next few months, why not just wait a little longer before completely opening up the state?

My guess is that it is a diversion to pull attention away from the complete mishandling of the Texas power grid causing millions of residents to lose power alongside several deaths. Or that it is about the governor making himself look good for his financial donors, even though the majority of Texas residents are against it.

Who knows the real reason, but in the end, all he is doing is causing more harm than good when it comes to lifting the mask mandate or opening business to 100%. 

I am furious.

Sincerely,

“Angry Texas resident.”


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Drop a comment down below if you can relate to the reader’s frustration and let’s spread some positivity if possible 🙂

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Tell All Tuesday #1

As much as I am grateful for having a job, especially during such trying times, I can’t help but ask myself why I have stayed at this office for as long as I have. I work very long hours, fill in for every position in the practice whenever necessary (which is often due to the many faces that have come and gone in the past 6 years), I am on call day and night for emergencies and last minute requests, and have had little increase in pay since I started at this practice 6 years ago. Additionally, I have only been out sick once in the last six years, whenever I request off for vacation it’s an issue, and I can only take time off when the doctor is on vacation. 

I’d like to say that the most upsetting condition of all is lack of appreciation for all the blood, sweat, and tears I have put in to this practice from day one. The doctor’s controlling and micromanaging nature has let to an overall decline of morality within the office. I have been delegated all the responsibilities for an office manager without the title or the pay. Without the title, the doctor knows it has become very difficult to do my job as I am being constantly challenged by other employees on my authority. I am unable to hold anyone accountable as office manager, and cannot ask anyone to complete tasks and therefore I end up having to do it myself……….well NO MORE.

You are our leader and what you say and do affects the entire practice.

THIS NEEDS TO CHANGE.

Sincerely,

“About to Quit”


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Candlelight

The yellow light flickers gently,

Illuminating my room

Like the fiery sunset.

The light is warm

Like a tender embrace

In the coziest of blankets.

The light is unsteady

Like my heartbeat

As you caress my skin.

The lights fosters an ambience

Of peace and calmness

Casting its warmth like a net

Drawing me in

And slowly rocking me to sleep.


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New Venture

Hello Real Unfiltered family! I have an exciting new venture that will be implemented on this page moving forward! My normal posting schedule is every Friday (or Saturday). In addition to this, I will now be posting “Tell All Tuesdays” each week. These posts will come from you guys, the subscribers and supporters of this webpage (EXCITING!).

My idea with “Tell All Tuesdays” is for it to be a place of anonymous ranting, venting, confessions, and stories. These can be about anything in your life that you feel people can relate to, or something you just need to get out into the world and off your chest. This was inspired by the apology line in Manhattan run by Mr. Apology-where callers would confess their deepest secrets and regrets to the line, anonymously. You can send me an email at realunfilteredblog@gmail.com OR fill out the form on the “Contact Me” page of the blog. When I post, I will be sure to leave your name out, making it anonymous.

I am excited for this new venture and hope you find it in your hearts to contribute to making “Tell All Tuesdays” as successful as I imagine!

Déjà Vu

Sometimes people ask me why I believe in reincarnation. There is no scientific proof that it happens at all. My proof of reincarnation always comes from the phenomenon of déjà vu, the feeling that you have seen, heard, or been someone/something/someplace before. 

My experience with déjà vu is rather strange. Sometimes the feeling pops up even when I  know for a fact that I haven’t been somewhere before. THAT is how I know reincarnation exists and is real. 

What if déjà vu is just us remembering events, conversations, experiences, etc. from our past lives? What if those moments that we briefly remember are actually deeper experiences from the past that give us glimpses of who we were before? What if we could somehow piece together all of those little moments of déjà vu to relive our old lives? What if we could induce or provoke déjà vu to happen to learn more about the past? 

I would love to read what your thoughts are about reincarnation or déjà vu! Feel free to share them below in the comments!